free flying soul

"this world has nothing for me and this world has everything...all that I could want and nothing that I need"

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Location: Macclesfield, North Carolina, United States

Born: 1970; Graduated High School: 1988; Married: 1991; Children: 1996, 2000, 2005; Graduated College: 2008; Figured Out This Faith Thing: In Progress

Monday, December 05, 2005

Wow....another update

Well....the semester breezed by MUCH faster than I anticipated. I took two of my final exams today. I've got two tomorrow and one on Wednesday and then it's over. Wow. We don't go back to class until January 8, 2006. I don't know what I'm going to do for the next month.

I have decided to use a bigger font because I nearly went blind trying to read the last post. I'm still sorting through ideas as to what I want to do here. I have a couple of papers that I wrote that I may post up here in the next day or so.

I originally started this thing so I could openly discuss personal things without worrying about friends and family stumbling upon it and being embarrassed or angered. I haven't done much of that so far. Honestly, the past month or so have gone by so quickly that I haven't really pondered those sorts of things. goes.

This past October marked the 27th anniversary of the death of my sister. I will be honest, the years have really dulled the sense of loss and that really bothers me. I was only eight years old when she died and I didn't get to see her. She was stillborn and my parents didn't allow us (my brother and I) to see her. I really regret that. I guess I can understand why they didn't but I'd be lying if I said it didn't bother me that my sister is only a name. It seems that a lot of my family's problems originated at that time. My parents both have their opinions as to what the problem is and when it began, but that's when things changed for me. I addressed this earlier in this blog-thing but it still bothers me...I don't know why. Do you think it's wrong to NOT get over some things?