free flying soul

"this world has nothing for me and this world has everything...all that I could want and nothing that I need"

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Born: 1970; Graduated High School: 1988; Married: 1991; Children: 1996, 2000, 2005; Graduated College: 2008; Figured Out This Faith Thing: In Progress

Monday, May 28, 2007

Guilty?

I think I should be feeling guilty...I really do. I've been listening to Iron Maiden all day long. I started with their first album and went all the way through Piece Of Mind. Does that mean there's somthing wrong with me?

I know this is a short and fairly pointless entry...but I have been slacking off in here for way too long.

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Rambling with A Purpose: Part Two

I don't know why Christianity didn't take the first time I attempted it. I guess I could make a laundry list of reasons why I was doomed to fail: lack of good role models, bad church situation, lack of knowledge...I don't know...they probably all had a part in it. I do know that I was teenager before I started to realize that being a Christian meant much more than going to church. That doesn't mean that I began practicing what I preached...in fact...that internal struggle grew even stronger. I fought against the things that I heard in church (and rarely saw practiced) and slowly slipped into a really comfortable version of Christianity that I had grown accustomed to seeing around me. Sundays and (some) Wednesdays belonged to Jesus and the other five days of the week were mine to do with however I saw fit. I had no real problem being involved in church and still being heathen...the two worlds didn't have to cross one another and that was just fine with me. And then something ELSE changed.